It took about two weeks for me to accept my identity as a sex worker. When I first interviewed and even when I arrived on my first day, I considered it like any serious job. In my mind, I emphasized the professional in professional dominatrix. The first time I started to accept the role of [...][...]
Archive for the ‘Diary’ Category
The (Near) Claiming of Ma Cherie
Never fear, dear readers. Your friendly neighborhood domme has not hung up her paddle. I am still dominating businessmen with excessive disposable income. No, my story this week is set in the BDSM scene, a comedy of errors in which I walked haphazardly and blindly into a minefield of social mores. L[...]
Submissive Slut Seeks Stud
I need a lot of sex. In fact, I’m nearly insatiable. When I don’t get enough cock I think about it incessantly. When I do get enough (which is rare) I spend a good deal of time recalling the highlights and having orgasmic aftershocks from the memories. I love having sex with women, too, [...]
I Love You, But I’ve Chosen Domination
Today marks a special milestone for me, a rite of passage in any young woman’s life. It’s a day I’ve always dreamed about… the day I first fucked a man with a strap-on dildo. Ah, life is sweet. What? Did you expect me to talk about virginity? Or how about my wedding day? I could [...]
Sharing the Pain
When I told G I wouldn’t be out that Saturday night with Sir M and her to play at the dungeon party she was sincerely sad. “I like it when you’re there to share the pain with me,” she said. I assumed she meant that when I’m not there, he does longer BDSM sessions with [[...]
Happy Endings
Submitting to the will of another has taught me the bliss of surrender. The ecstasy I experience in serving an elite but demanding Dom cannot be reached in any other way. But as I go deeper in surrender, I’ve taken some missteps in my journey that have led to misery and threatened my service t[...]
My Extreme Fuck Up
I walk on the wild side. I gravitate toward the extreme –- whether it is sex, hot and intensely seasoned foods, partying like a rock star or rough travel to exotic locations. I’m in service to a Dom who is an edge player –- meaning he likes the more dangerous BDSM activities. He loves to [...][...]
Three’s Company
I’ve been Sir M’s only trainee for nearly the first six months. He’s rejected many training requests from other submissives — often because he doesn’t think they’re serious, or they are looking for a boyfriend Dom. “I choose my trainees, they don’t cho[...]
I’ve Been Bad
I’ve been bad. I deserve to be punished. So I lie in a dog’s cage naked, on my side with legs curled up, pondering my transgression. I’m wearing only the chain leash attached to my rhinestone-studded collar, and a thick blindfold. Sir M sits on the other side of the room in an offi[...]
San Blas and Other Crazy Things
I read it, and I wanted to cry. So I started drinking water quickly to push it down. It doesn’t really matter. I know you loved me more than anything. You taught me that the only way to love is unconditionally. You explained so much. I argued even when I knew you were right because [...][...]